I finally decided to write to RR today. I don't know what is happening to me but things that revolve around me lately seem to remind me of him so I decided to pen him… It has been 3 years now and I wonder how have he been.
I ended up writing him a long email, which I don't even know he's going to read it or not. Even if he reads it, he might choose not to reply me.
Maybe he got settled down with a wonderful life, a wonderful girlfriend or even wife, and children? Maybe he already had forgotten about me…
It took whole lots of gut to write him again. I don't know whether I made the right decision or not. Maybe he's going to think I'm pathetic or maybe worst, but I feel so much relieved now. No matter what he's going to think, just let it be :)
I don't expect by writing to him seeking his forgiven or sympathy, but I just thought that this guy... he's a great guy and I don't wish to lose a friend like him. Although we can't be lover, but I had always believed, it's faith that brought us together, it's faith that got us connected for 2 years, it must have meant something!. It's not easy to have 2 strangers from million miles away to meet... we have gone through a lot. Having him in my life was the greatest achievement I ever had. I don't know when can I meet another great guy like him. I know I will always be shadowed by him and that's sad. Maybe it's a punishment for what I’ve done... I don't know! It's just my fate!
"Life's too short", that's what he always said so why waste it?
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